ex-l wrote:I don't buy the polished PR peel anymore.
I don't either. I've never been comfortable with the image building propaganda stuff.
I remember once when we were given news of some big service thing from London or something, I felt so uninterested, distant and even having a sulking like attitude. Difficult to describe. The thing was probably coming from a place of good intentions but it felt like there was such an inter galactic gap between the deciding elite and those who are expected to finance and execute the projects. I could not explain why I felt like that and I went into meditation asking myself and Baba, "What's wrong with me? I should be happy hearing of service news ..." The answer I got was, "Don't worry child, you're alright. Baba will take care of that." He did not say when and I am still waiting patiently ...
The control dynamics and hierarchical power structure have always been there but when I came things were pretty simple and straightforward. Now we have all the glossy paper and professionally designed CDs and literature, a very nice packaging, but there is no power in it. I went to check out the international BK website and our local website. Very pretty design, nice visuals, etc, but nothing inspiring. The knowledge content has been so diluted that it will really take a direct intervention from God to trigger a life changing experience from that!
I am still inspired to teach the 7 Days Course but I do not participate in any type of promotion of the BKs. It makes me sick. Service should be about helping souls, not about promoting oneself. Now that I live in a big center, I am exposed to so much of this stuff. God is very detached but for me it is not always easy to live in such a world of deceptions. I am seriously considering jumping off and moving forward with my Brahmin life in a small simple place where we can focus on Truth.