Dear divine soul,golden heart wrote:3. It is not true that nobody is willing to guide you in the BK Family. Just as you have exercised courage to reveal your difficulty here, you must have the same courage to express it to any instrumental experienced soul in the Family. Since you will be going to Madhuban this season, I will not go into too much detail here, but you may approach Ashok Gabba who is dealing with the Security Wing, who is normally very friendly with Double Foreigners. You may also meet Mohan Singhal who is dealing with the Scientists and Engineering Wing, and thereafter Partap Midha who is dealing with the Medical Wing.
I am very happy to read your views. They are definitely helpful. You are right; the answers are there in the Knowledge but what to do sometimes when you are caught up in that big Maya the intellect hardly functions and the mind takes over! However, I am and I will continue to try my best to do it!
Thank you so much for the answer. Please note that I did not mean to say that there is no one who is able to answer this in the BK family, however what I meant was that the issue is not discussed that much openly when it continues to be one of the biggest issues. See, you too have mentioned that I have to persist and I would get the answer ... that is what I was trying to tell that we have to persist, i.e. its not openly discussed. Also, the fact that there are very few souls whom one can approach for these issues and that too they are in Madhuban.
In fact, I knew one very good pukka kumar brother in Gyan for several years. who would talk very openly to all the kumars but now I have lost touch with that brother as he has shifted to another centre in another city. Anyways, I have taken note of your suggestions. Once again thanks!