Sorry I've take long to replay! I just enjoy my sleep now. Hahahah ... kidding! Or my freedom.
When I went to the centre on Tuesday, we sat in Baba's room (me and the Indian senior alone). Usually when we have a chat, we used to sit next door in the class. I guess she needs help.
I don't know if you believe me or not, but I was feeling so strong that I was even surprise of my stage and the power was coming from God, that when I looked Brahma Baba for me was only a picture.
The Sister said that if I was going to leave the BK, I was going to have a depression,
and that if I was still coming in the early morning, Baba was going to help me to make a decision. She said that they need my help because Dadi is coming with in 15 days and was a lot of work to do. She seems so small (does it sound arrogant? sorry!!).
After about 20 minutes, the little girl (her grandchild) open the door, you should have seen her face when she saw me. I just wished I could take her away from that hell. Sorry that maybe too much, we were quite attached (sorry, it shouldn't be in the BK).
One day (about 2 month ago) the grandma said that I wasn't allowed to speak or to play with the child. She made me laugh and after when she was apologise she make up a story. I was looking after the Senior Sister in India, that meant 24 of 24 hours, and she used to made up so many lies and story that I couldn't believe it. She met Brahma Baba, so how long she is in the Knowledge? Ups!!! 40 years ... Sorry!!!
The child jumped on my knee and said, "hallo my sister" and she give me a strong hug. The mother came in (she looked very sick*) and as a joke she said, "hello sister". I replied.
- The child, "She IS my sister (referring to me)."
I: "We are all sisters! Together!"
Child: "No, she is my sister."
Mother: "My friend."
Child: "No she is my friend. She is my sister."
Grandma: "Stop it, naughty girl." (she often call the child with names)
The child went down from my knee and pushed the grandma and said go away. And then she come back to me with a anger face.
- I: "Where is the little angel?"
I: "Angel are nice with Da" (name given to the grandma).
Child: "She is no Da she is bad man".
I believe children have a sixth sense for the first 4-6 years old. I hope she stay strong. So many times the child did not give respect to the grandma. Only to the grandma.
I don't know what is true and what is false in the knowledge. I don't know which one to believe! I agree about detached but where is Love in all this because I did not see/felt any? I believe all the souls are the same, no Jesus (in Christianity), no Brahma Baba (in BK) and what ever ... are better then other souls ...?
* THE MOTHER had a arranged marriage 5 years ago. She said that she used to cry a lot at the beginning, first 2 years, and then slowly she become strong. I did not see any human right do not even talk about spirituality.
No bad or good, just be and be with love.