Hi y'all and thanks too to Rocksanne for contributing to the "what's pulling me away thread". In my own lighthearted 'old school' way I observe that your nick brings to mind a female rapper of days gone by who performed under the name 'Roxanne Shante' :wink: Which surname almost sounds Shanti so i will say OM.
Does it need to be an official declaration or is it just a gradual drifting away?
Only you know that answer Rocksanne. As we are told in the BKWSU it is a part you have played many, many times before and will do again. So which was it, do you feel? is not it interesting that even though I am exiting I am still prone to answer questions on the basis of one of the central tenets of the BK's teachings? I.E. The inescapable repetitiveness of the cycle! So do we ever junk any of the teachings and which ones do we find ourselves incorporating into our onward development as though it were our second nature? Or is that stuff really a part of our eternal consciousness, hence the inability to let go entirely?
Well, looking backwards at my recent attendance record and then forward to how the grapevine may rattle with talk of Abrahma Kumar's 'demise' I can imagine that there will be many an I-told-you-so. I too have been to class less and less over this past 12 months. It seems a natural consequence once we have let go of that Shiva soul's hand a little bit ;)
I know what you mean about the 'official statement' idea and was interesting to hear what others have shared about their experiences. Unfortunately, my options seem rather limited in that it may well have to be official. Honesty being one reason and the other, in case I go without the company of my alokiks. In the latter case, slinking away silently is not really on I don't think. The roles some of us must play are so bitter sweet - and yet still we can not swap part with any other. Wah! The accuracy of drama!
Our BK friends may feel that they have to distance themselves - it may be the only way that BKdom in its present state can survive. We can not be allowed to 'pollute' the atmosphere. We must remember too the Court of Indra over which every self-respecting BK is a sworn guardian. I just pray that my leaving will not be acrimonious as I will have issues enough to contend with, without adding bitching BK's as well.
As for the SS understanding if I explain. Huh! I doubt it because they are trained to keep me inside. They are trained to sniff out any 'dissent' and ensure that the centre is not polluted by the wayward. It takes a strong and alive individual to awaken to the idea that certain things need to be clarified. Some of the posters here refer to it as graduating from university.
As for loss of credibility, one ought to fear nothing really because according to the teachings every BK 'knows' exactly what the leaver's credentials are. However, what they can not know is what songs our hearts sing or cry as we exit. This is for us and God alone. So let them talk and conjecture in that wise way that we do as BK's.
On this forum they can see that we are not mad or rabidly anti-BK but we simply do not want to be taken-in by the falsehoods and hidden agenda any more. If it is all about God then let us be transparent and a bit less of the www doctoring and less of the Murli re-writes. And let's protect the children! And what's this with all the money-making Gyan? And the optional Maryadas? and the violence against student's of other institutions against some parts of the world? And the lack of any duty-of-care?
I am so glad that I have awakened.