Sarah wrote: Paul this is a bit scary for me. I have always felt I was a soul, and while with the BKs I felt that I was able to connect to God, as I understood him/her. I left the BKs because I felt that they were of the opinion that only they could connect with God, and unless I practiced a, b, and c, I would not get even close. I am picking up on this website that not only am I possibly not a soul, because it cannot objectively be proven, but that I have got God all wrong! Sorry if I am being a bit dim, but I really need to UNDERSTAND what you mean by God not being an external being.
Hey Sarah I'd typed u a huge answer to your post and then pressed a wrong button and lost it all, so here I go again, maybe the first answer was not the thing to say! Joel has some really deep and interesting answers and I enjoy whatever he posts as there's also so much expereince behind his comments. What I wanted to say about God not being an 'external being' is that to my
understanding we have all been taught that God is that Big Light, or the man, or The Dude with the Wise old face high in the sky.... and we've probably mostly beleived that kind of thing. The BKs teach a process that says that God is a non-human soul who resides in a Higher Realm and incarnates into his medium from time to time. My first experience of 'GOD' (with them) was when I had a huge realisation one evening, as if my mind and brain was rocked and pulled about and I felt-heard-knew "You are my child - never forget this" - which I never have forgotten.
Of course, because the BKWSU had taught me to meditate and I'd had the experience in meditation, that was it, I was in hook, line and sinker. It was only through the years after I left that I began to practice other forms of meditation and spiritual processes that I realised I still had 'God' but that my concepts were changing dramatically and that all I needed to do was open my heart and keep it clear and the connection was there. So to me The Big Man is not only an external process but also aligned with my heart. I now understand that my meditation/spiritual practice creates an internal adjustment which allows me to connect to myself whcih then in turn allows met to connect to God, so he's both inside and outside too, does that make more sense? But surely, you have your own concept of God? Why not work with that and develop it?
I also burst out laughing at the BKs feeding my cat. I had never thought of that. It is so funny :lol: Socks, my cat, only likes tuna chunks!!! The thought that they all had to shower afterwards is hilarious. Boy, must they have invested in me!!! Pretty sure that Socks brought in the odd dead mouse too! Oh dear, that could have been pure comedy (trusting, of course, the the mouse soul left the body well and truly before Socks moved in!!!)
Think about this: ~!~ The BKWSU cats were playing with you (their mouse) - and then they had to feed a cat themselves with something they hate and view as, like, so evil.
Hmmm, I wonder if they looked into "the Mirror" and saw what was happening within themselves at that moment ... and they want to teach about the Law of Karma? hahahahahaaa now thats really funny to me ... Anyway, you're OK - you still believe that animals have souls - they don't believe animals do ... suggest you watch a Tom & Jerry Cartoon soon, k? That darned cat never won and the mouse always pulled through. "I did I did I saw a purdy cat ..." - sorry got carried away a bit there with that image ... 8).
Now this is good, I could do this. I am feeling fired up now, not as depressed as earlier when I thought I had to ditch my notion of God!!
Don't ever have to ditch any notion - it'll make way for a newer notion as and when you're ready to work with it.
Huge sigh from paul about str8 girls ...
Sorry, but what is a keeper?
~!~ Have you never read "Behind every great woman stands a fabulous gay guy?"
(!) What I mean by a keeper is that your man wants you, loves you, understands you - is willing to stand by you so don't let him go, keep
him, (preferably in a clean cage, k?
:biggrin: ) well-fed and with clean beer all the time. One really doesn't have to leave your partner in order to find your truth, unless of course he objects to travelling up the Himalayas with you, now thats 'cause for a problem or two ... and he should carry the backpacks!
Thanks Paul, that is really helpful and encouraging for me. It certainly will stop me banging on that particulary door when I am feeling weak
The BK's focus is on impurity ALL the Time, remember that one becomes what one thinks, they cannot help it; they don't know better, so forgive them their own evils, k?
Anyways ,I want to say to you that one is never weak, one simply forgets one's strengths from time to time and in my book of life, I really try to live in higher vibration, not in guilt or fear of what I haven't done or what I did in the past and ten seconds ago is the past to me (most days anyhow) ... so just go be human I say, thats all we can be anyway; in my open opinion.
See! You're alright now, you're seeing that your truth and their truth is not the same, and thats great news ... :D Be well til we 'e-speak' again.
Now do log off and go make your hubby a huge meat pie and pour him a pint, and tell him he's more than OK ... and know that God loves ya or you wouldn't be going through all this stuff. There's big things in store for you ... p.s you're a beautiful soul - do remember that xxxx